2003-08-04 ~ 9:02 p.m.

"Away From Me"



I hold my breath as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved
And I

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself, but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this
I loathe all I've become

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

-Evanescence

This song seems to describe somewhat how I've been feeling at points in the day. I've been yo-yoing between being quite happy and very depressed. At first I wanted to do something with someone tonight badly. I didn't want to be by myself, then I didn't want to be with anyone. Then all I wanted was him to hold me. I was mad at people for having plans tonight, then I was relieved. I wavered between being angry at people for no reason and thinking at least plesantly of them. It's all very confusing for my poor brain. Perhaps it is stress. Perhaps it's simply exhaustion. Perhaps something more, or maybe nothing at all and my brain is simply having fun messing with me. Any of the above is quite possible. I had more to say, but now I don't know what is was. If I am lucky it will come back to me at some point and I will possibly even write it down here.

 

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