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2004-02-18 ~ 9:27 p.m.
Lost In A MomentI hadn't planned to write tonight. In fact I had decided quite stubbornly NOT to write, despite having many thoughts floating through my head all day. Lost in a weariness I didn't realize was there, and a despair I haven't felt in a while, enough to convince me not to page my love, after getting no answer at his house, despite desperately longing to have him hold me. And though I still haven't done that, here I sit, tapping on keys, typing out words that perhaps no one will even read. Suprisingly, all because of a book. The same book that has provoked most of my thoughts throughout the day. Had I not deemed to finish it, I would undoubtedly decided not to bother. There are times....moments when the world around you ceases to exist, where there is nothing beyond that moment, no past, and no future. Laying in the arms of someone you love so beyond understanding, beyond what meager words could ever explain and knowing that moment is all that matters, and no matter what may come tomorrow it all ends in that moment. No fear, no pain, only a completely contentement and knowledge that that moment may be all you ever get, and thus is all there is. I should undoubtedly clarify that this is not the same as sex. This goes beyond that. Laying together, wrapped in one anothers arms, and feeling their soul touch yours, just like skin touching. Wanting to stay lost in that moment forever. While I can feel the weariness pulling at me, I still wonder at the clarity you can take from a book....and realize somethings in life, are unutterably precious. | ||
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