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2006-02-17 ~ 4:40 a.m.
Just BreatheSo, I'm a statistic, one at the very least. One of those people that gets dumped on Valentine's Day. Most romantic day of the year. And I'm sitting here in my room, at 4:40am just trying to keep breathing. Trying to make it through another day. Gotta keep myself distracted right? Best way to survive the break-up, not think about it. But everything I do reminds me of him. All the little things. Text messages telling me class sucks. Do I wanna play games online with him tonight cause I seem to be the only ones that does. Just the stupid little things you don't think you'll miss. Somehow I miss them. Trying to keep my mind off it. I swear I've watched more Movies today then I have in months. I went to work yesterday, put on a brave face. I figured concentrate on work, you won't have time to think. Somehow I found it hard to even bother. It would be so much easier if I hated him. If I could just manage to hate him, but I don't. I still love him, so much and that's what hurts more than anything. I don't know what I did to make it all fall apart, but I would take it back if I could. Maybe love isn't enough, maybe it wasn't meant to be, but then why do I hurt this badly? He wants to be friends, I really hope we can manage that eventually, cause he is my best friend, and I can't imagine my life without him in it, at least somehow but right now, I'm just struggling to breathe. Somebody Help Me. | ||
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