Words Without Meaning

I've actually been meaning to update now for a couple of days but I was busy *grins happily* with more important things. So I will just have to try to remember what I wanted to say and get it all in here. It's not likely I'll remember it all, because some of the violently strong emotions I was feeling at the times have ebbed away.

I've gotten to spend quite a bit of time with my BF this week. It's been nice. I like being close to him, even when he's sick, tired and in pain. We've talked and cuddled and worked on rearranging furniture. Besides the dust, was all good.

I feel rather torn lately. She's almost like a drug. When she's in control we've confident, and seductive. Things that bother me like crazy don't phase her. She sees things in a different light, and what I think is important isn't necessarily important to her. But when I finally manage to push her back down for fear of what she might do, despite the fact I never give her total control, she leaves doubt and anger and fear in her wake. She has less morals than I do, and I fear what I might be giving myself over to, and she hurts people, not always on purpose (but sometimes) and I have to eventually clean up the mess...

My youngest brother has been sucked down into a depression that is bordering on suicidal at times. It worries, but other than keep him company and try to support him, there is little I can do about it. I'm afraid to have him left alone. He's far too young to be hurting so badly, though I suppose neither pain nor love cares about age, or gender for that matter, but that's not part of his issue.

I took this test and couldn't help but agree with it and smile. For those of you who know the series, you'll understand. It actually fits me quite well.

You are Belle Morte! The Sourdre de Sang of her own
bloodline. You have many followers and they all
have sex with you. You're amazing between the
sheets. But you have this problem where you
think that you're soo good that if someone
leaves your bed there must be something wrong
with them. Powerful, sexy, if a little
arrogant.

Which Anita Blake Character are you?
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