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2004-07-04 ~ 8:39 p.m.
One Week Down...Well I just finished my first week of working all seven days in a row....only 13 more weeks to go. If I manage it, that will be roughly 98 days in a row. I have a sneaky suspicion that my friends may start a pool as to when I will crack. Lucky for me, that jokes on them, I cracked a long time ago. At this point I just want money and time to spend on my BF. After all, who needs sanity? I screwed up royally this morning. I forgot the alarm was on when I tried to leave. The alarm went off, my boyfriend dashed to turned it off. I felt like an idea, and headed to work. Apparently he missed the call from the security company and they sent the police to check it out. So he's all stressed. On top of that, he called to talk to me, I was on the other line, put him on hold to get rid of the other person, then when I went back it seemed like he wasn't there, then I hit the wrong button and he really WASN'T there, I hit another button and he was, only he'd already heard me say hello like five times and was kinda frustrated. He snapped, I snapped back....and well it all ended badly. I feel like a total bitch. I don't mean to be so moody. I really need to get my goddamn pills refilled. I detest taking pills, but it makes me easier to deal with....and some people are important enough. The fact that I just might be getting sick might be contributing to my silliness and lack of patience. I have an ear ache and an off and on sore throat. My stomach is also not happy. Really I can't be sick....I don't have time, I couldn't even potentially pencil it in somewhere. My agenda is full. The depression is still hanging on. I don't feel like going into it right now, but most of you know why I'm depressed anyways. I will get around to writing it down sometime soon. It might almost be thereputic....maybe. Right now I'm tapped out.....and vaguely considering crying. I think I'll go before I ruin my keyboard. Sorry I snapped at you love, I didn't mean to. I love you. | ||
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